Abandonment is a behavioral schema which is originated by different factors. The antique collectors, people who collect mementos and generally the ones who are mostly interested in nostalgia are diagnosed with abandonment. Patriotic feelings, the love for your country and not being able to understand the reality of life and death also can cause inefficient behaviors and thoughts in the future. My mother’s uncle’s funeral was on a very cold and snowy day and that was the first time I took photos of a funeral. After that snowy collection, I took shots of the Polish cemetery in Tehran. Bodies that were buried somewhere away from their homeland while immigrating and taking photos regarded to death and using this media as a narrative medium or even as a comporting tool or anything else was in my mind. The similarity of these projects was like “an added value”.
The more added values we have in our lives, people will enjoy my existence, my values and the impression more after our death. So I guess we go to funerals to feral ourselves. Faces, expressions, glances and even the physical form of people are narrating a hidden fear. Fear of predicting looking at similar days ahead. My mother’s aunt died in California after struggling with Alzheimer’s for 15 years at the age of 87. She made a will to her children to bury her body in Iran. I still had the excitement of taking photos of death in me. First of all, I had to go to the airport with my father to welcome his cousin so we could think of the funeral tomorrow when the body was here all the way from the USA. It was an odd experience. I kept asking myself what is the truth about the motherland and where nostalgia takes place in our lives? These interactions are like patriotic feelings which take away the chance of living in peace and by doing so, they are willing to give themselves a logical relief. A trap like abandonment which by being aware of it we could stop suffering from it.
